The story of James (geedis) Bogner.

Who thinks RAPE is funny



James Bogner

I just got off the phone with more people who won't help me find a job. It's a JOB PLACEMENT SERVICE. When does the job placing start? I have enough money to pay bills for another month, maybe two if I don't eat. Time has run out. I should be working for a freelance client, which should be bringing in a few hundred, but they really suck on contacting me. I thought they were through with me and closed the project, that's how bad they are. It should be good money, at least for me. They contacted me for more work, but they need to get with it. I hope it's soon. Other prospects aren't biting. If I'm not good enough, how the Hell am I supposed to go back to school and get my Graphic Arts degrees if I can't even pay rent?

I am applying for warehouse and janitor positions now, jobs I could get with my eyes closed 8 years ago, and receiving nothing. I have MORE experience now than I did then, and nobody cares at all. There are no positions for what I have experience in for the past 8 years. Financial printing: EDGAR filing and stock information processing, which I hated (don't know what that is? neither does anyone else. Only TWO companies in my state do this, one doesn't need me, the other won't hire me back. I was trained to do that stuff - I didn't know about it when they hired me. I even ended up in charge of training new employees. Means shit now.)

Ecommerce Graphics and Merchandising: I thought there would be tons of these positions out there when I was selected online by my employer back in 1999 (THAT was a great time). Again, knew nothing, was chosen, and kicked ass. They handed me the whole department (without making me a manager in name, of course) I created the entire process myself. They loved me there. Right up until my boss quit and the others got laid off. Then I got laid off. Nobody does this now. 3 1/2 years of nothing. I almost had respect! I can be trained. Don't they know this? I don't even care about carreer anymore, just give me a fucking job putting information in a computer. Fuck, I can't remember when I've ever been this angry.

I am emailing, posting online, calling, delivering applications in person, after which I'm always told to email and post online anyway. Follow ups and calls bring nothing. Not a god damned thing. Position after position slips by and I don't even get an interview. I used to at least get to that point. I've had 2 in the past 9 months. No, 10 now. My entire family makes me feel like a stupid fuck, as if everything that is going wrong is my fault. It isn't. It can't be. They don't care. They keep telling me to apply for positions that I have no experience with. When I tell them this, they stomp away from me like pissed off 9 year olds. They don't bother to listen long enough to hear that I already tried it anyway, and that's how I know. This doesn't stop my brother from asking me where the free artwork for his church projects is. Free. Charity. For months now. The result in recognition, network contacts, or more work: ZERO. Nothing. Stugots. They wonder why I'm not social. I'm thinking, what for?

I KNOW the economy is bad. I KNOW it's 6.4 unemployment. Big help when I'm starving. There's more, but I always embarrass myself with these personal posts, so I'll sum up: No more posting. No more photo funnies. No more Gutters. Why? Good question - I'll try to answer it as I slip into the final stages of insanity: Because Someone Else Needs To Be Deprived. Others must pay now. Others, not me. Not anymore. Enough. What, I think I'm so great that anyone would miss me if I didn't post? No, nothing like that, but I just want some control. I want to DO something. If you ever wondered why I don't make comics, that's why. Nothing. No help, no support, no response, no mention, no camaraderie, no nothing. I can't do things for free anymore. I'm a few weeks away from a curb and a cardboard sign.

I'm filled up to overflowing with the nothing. I can't fit anymore in. I must release the valve, I must give nothing back. I return the nothing to the world. So thanks for nothing! (ha ha) (You realize that now that I've said all of this, I have to stick with it, even when I calm down. Please don't ask me to come back or I'll look like an idiot.) Sorry to the few who have supported me in the past. Not fair that you should be lumped in with everyone else (that pisses me off too), but you have to remember that any war has too many innocent casualties. And it's how I feel all the time now. I just have to take it. Well, so do you. If you feel any loss whatsoever, honor the memory by doing what you can to avoid joining this behavior, this nothingness. Understand, I must do this. There has to be balance. There HAS to be. I now delete the bookmarks. I'll leave the photo stuff I made up for awhile so anyone who wants to snag it can, but I need to make room on my server. I might still do the blog, I don't know.

I will return when I get what I worked all of these years for. I'll come back when things are right again and I have some security. I'll come back when I have time for this foolishness and fun. Now, I need to work work work. I'm not going to Commie either. No message there; what the hell for? It's not like any of them can understand English anyway (ha ha). Anyway, that's it.

Geedis: Goodbye to the Gutters
Geedis: That's it for me


James(geedis)Bogner stop being jealous of me. You know what. I realize that most people are jealous of me but I expected that. But it's hard when the people you knew for most of your life are jealous. But for a complete stranger who lives thousands of miles from you. Who you've never ever met before. A mothafucka who don't even know your real name is jealous of you is too much to bear.

James(geedis)Bogner your jealousy is a mystery to me. What makes you jealous of me? What did I ever do to you to make you feel the way you do? Why do you associate me too a monkey James(geedis)Bogner? I mean, do you really believe I'm a small hairy shit-throwing ape? Damn! James(geedis)Bogner you are low blower.


The ghost of Geedis? It sounds more pathetic now than when you first wrote that sympathy post huh! Don't you feel stupid now? Tell us how much money you scammed off your BLOG?

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Originally posted by geedis:

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Originally posted by New Age Poster.:
I have a great Comicon following. Besides you, Kym, Joe Kletz, Cookie Monster, Hunter, Spack, Rusty, Danny(dirty)Hellman, Frank, Siren, and that GUY(who will remain nameless: not Guy Granger) just too name a few has visited my blog many times. Even mothafuckas from TOP SIDE read my blog.
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And you think they visit your blog because they like you and are interested in your life?

That's cute too. Cute, and pathectic.

New Age Retard is you.
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My blog isn't about my life shit stain. Unlike Kletz my blog is suppose to be funny and gibberish. It's suppose to read:

AT24MERCERAVE
Gibberish blog
CAN I BUST?

No James(geedis)Bogner I'm not the poor lil sock.

And another thang! You've been there again. 22 minutes. Did you see the UP DATE! on your BOY Kletz.